Midnight the Fox

I truly and honestly do. And why in the world do I have to have one today? All I do during a snow day is sit here and shovel. I hate them, I'd rather be in school doing something productive. Regardless, I'm bored out of my wits and a little sad at the moment. I'm sad because someone just made fun of me for having Autism. Yes, I do have it, for those of you who don't know (or haven't figured it out by the last sentence). So my streak of three good days is ruined by some stupid snow. I honestly would of rather waited for Saturday.

Today was a really boring day. I got into school, went to history. There, we got our PSAT scores and did our stupid career assessment tests. I'm 69% above the percentile of kids trying to get into college. So... yeah.... Then it was study hall, and my case manager was actually nice. >> He wants me to do ALL of my assignments that I'm missing though, even if I can't turn them in... argh! Oh well, I'll just do those later. Then I went to Spanish, and we had a test in that. Then we had Geometry, and our teacher gave us the wrong homework XD, but he counted it anyways. Then after, we had Health. In it, we were asking the opposite gender questions >>. The girls asked the guys when we first started masturbating and we had to answer >>. But my teacher let me decline so it's all good :D. *has privacy issues* oook anyways... I've still gotta fix my stupid scanner so I scan all of my christmas pics. I read that Shadow the Hedgehog was rated a 4 and a 2 on a scale of 1-10 (10 being best) in Game Informer XD. It must really suck. I must admit, Sonic's games have, lately, been... sub-par. Except for Sonic Rush. I played two seconds of it in a store before getting smacked by a 5 year old who wanted to play XD. Um soooo now... we're supposed to have a snowday tomorrow! >> Which I don't want, or else we'll have to go to school later. Ick. I'ma go now and do random stuff to keep me occupied until Shady gets on. Sayonara.

Well, today was excellent! In Biology, we looked at a lab partner's cheek cells XD! That was disguisting/cool! We had double bio today, so in between the two periods I took a nap! Then in English we watched the rest of the movie, and we talked about the possible rolling black outs. And in Spanish, we had a quiz and more boring work. In Health, we watched a sad movie on hate crimes. The ride home was super quiet, the way I like it, I don't like it when I have to talk with others. And I got home, talked with Boudewijn a bit, and read that Shady's having a few tough times, but I'll help him! And right now everything seems happy!!!!! Which explains my over-use of exclamation marks XP. 12 days until Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! w00t! *runs*

Meh, so my day has sucked really bad. It was Anna's birthday this morning, but I didn't have a present for her so I felt rather mean. Then it was History, and my teacher got pissed at me for not having my book, he didn't even tell us to bring them. Then I had to go to my study hall, and my case manager kept interrupting everything I was doing, asking me questions and such, and it got really annoying. Eventually, I got really mad because he kept underestimating my skills and I just said, as polite as possible "Can I please finish my homework?", but my angry tone came through. He just backed off for the time being, but I got really mad. Then in English, we were watching the movie for The Murders in the Rue Morgue, and the kid behind me kept throwing pencils at me. So I turned around and told him to stop, and I got in trouble! Then when someone asked the time later, I told them, and I get in trouble again- after explaining myself both times! Ugh I hate Mrs. Kimball, insane work-a-holic bitch. Then in Geometry, I had the math homework, which was good, because my teacher was proud of me, but none of the stuff made sense. Then in Health, we learned self defense, so at least I won't be raped. At the end of the class, I got in trouble with the teacher because I didn't have an assignment in. On the bus ride home, Katy was really sad because I told her that someone was talking about her behind her back, I think it was the wrong thing to tell her. But the bus ride home was relatively quiet, compared to other days. Then I got home to find that my dad was home, that didn't do much for me. He said he needed to use the computer later and it would only take 30 minutes. So, I let him on now instead of later. And what does he do? He takes not 30 minutes, not an hour, but instead 2 entire hours. Heh, 30 minutes indeed. Then I got on to discover that Shady was leaving and wouldn't be on. AGAIN. So now, I just totally feel like shit. Meh, I may sound like a wuss for saying this, but after today, I just feel like going to my bed and crying right now...

Yes, got out early of school. I didn't have my Biology book or my Spanish project, which didn't make me too happy, but it also didn't bother me. I got home, and mom's home right now, which really sucks, because I really want to be left alone. I was pretty happy until I read a moment ago that Shady won't be on today, that brought my mood down pretty far. I'm just going to stay in the computer room all day long, with the door locked, so I can't be bothered by the outside world. That's how I am, I only open the door for people who I want to let in. Everyone else stays outside. So yeah... I'm in a no-touchy mood and a little depressed that I won't talk to Shady, but... still, I can't deny I'm a bit happy that it's finally snowing (good snow too, the kind that's great for making snowmen n.n)

And I got stabbed with a pencil today. Ouch indeed. It was an accident too, but still, it hurt like hell.

And here's the thought of the day:
"Bloody" is almost one step up from "f*ck" in England on the bad word scale. So what do you say if you have a bloody hand?

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In January I bought porn for quadtails (-10 points). Last Tuesday I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Last Thursday I helped shadytails see the light (8 points). Last week I ruled Canada as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In November I donated bone marrow to flyboy_fox in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-374 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich! Sincerely, middy_the_fox

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I'm so nice... yet so mean XD

Pretty well, I'd have to say. I got some school help, so that'll bring up my grades and it solves most of my school problems. I got ungrounded, that really helped my mood because I can talk to Shady everyday now, n.n. I got a new video game, and had pizza yesterday. And today was pretty good, aside from the fact that an hour ago I had a major tummy ache, but it's all better now! Guh, I've been really tired lately, maybe I should get more sleep lol. I've been trying to decide whether or not to put the comic I'm drawing up. If I do, it'll be a private comic, meaning only certain people can read it. I'm not even sure I entirely want to release the idea, but I'll be thinking about it. Post opinions on whether or not you want to see it up. As soon as I get around to fixing my scanner, I'll slap up a link to a the very first page of Chapter 1, which doesn't give much away, but it's enough to whet your appetite.

Until next time, ¡Adios!

Seriously, stop the console wars people. We're all getting REALLY immature when it comes to this. THEY'RE VIDEO GAMES. Who cares if Microsoft is better or Sony is better or Nintendo is better? NONE OF THEM ARE THE BEST! Honestly, don't we have anything better to waste our time on other than being fanboys and arguing about which machines are better? Where have our brains gone to? OK, I don't care if Nintendo was first and they've got a fat plumber who jumps on people to defeat them, or the PS2 "lags" (and it DOES NOT LAG, trust me. I've owned one for lots of years, it's NEVER lagged.), or the X-Box is made by Microsoft who has too much money. Honestly, all you fanboys out there and people battling for the "best console" are immature and stupid. GET A LIFE.


~Rant over.

Yay, no homework today! That's like... a miracle or something o_o. So, let's get the bad news over with, shall we? First of all, I took the liberty of reading some of Joseph's (from TTR)... threads? Things. Whatever you want to call them. Let me say one thing and only one thing: that has to be the stupidest crap I've ever heard since... forever! *shouts* WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE STOP DROPPING HIM ON HIS HEAD, KTHXBYE! Anyways... two kids on my school bus are stirring up problems (they've been stirring up problems ever since they've been on, what am I saying?). They want to beat up a kid and gah, everything's a mess. The school cop's had to come on our bus several times. *smacks them* Then of course, our computer has the "Sober" worm. Don't know what that is? I'll give you the low down. The sober worm causes you to receive e-mails saying that you visit illegal websites. I can only imagine what illegal websites are, but I'm assuming they're trying to reference child porn. Either way, it's really annoying. To the good news...
I started formulating my Christmas list, yay ^^. Here's what I've got down so far:

-Sonic Rush
-Shadow the Hedgehog
-The Movies (a fun little game where you get to make your own movies XD)
-Picture from Shady ^^
-A monkey (XD that's been on my Christmas list for ages, I kept it on as a joke)
-TAILS PLUSH (omgz GET ME ONE! *twitch*)

So buy me gifts :p!
So, I shall retreat to the X-Box for an hour or so and wait for my knight in shining armor to arrive (in all reality it's the other way around XD).

And PS... on the whole thing I've been keeping quiet about lately, I've got some thanks to give out. I want to say thanks to Flyboy and Feldy for giving me advice on the entire matter, and I want to thank Q and Shady for emotional support. You've really helped guys, it's up to me now >>

This can't be true... IM me to get the whole story, I don't want to put it up here out of fear...

I haven't known what to think of a specific relative... IM me if you want the specifics... I'm in need of help, I feel so lost on my position of what I think of this person now... I REALLY need someone to talk to about this...

I need to be more observing. My homepage had crashed a few hours earlier. Well, I've been hopping on and off the internet recently, and the page has came back, and it's been up on the several times I've opened my browser. But this recent time I only just noticed. Wow XD. Anyways... I'm trying to make an RP forum. But I'm not sure what I should make it on yet o_o. Ideas would be appreciated ^^.

OK... random title, I know XD. Right now, I'm pretty bored. I wish I had more people to chat with lol. Oh well, you get what you get, right? My scanner somehow got unplugged from the computer. It's plugged in but the computer isn't detecting it ><. I've gotta go back there sometime soon and fix it... argh.

Silence. That's all I hear. My headphones are on, but there's no music running. I can hear the static... and it's just silence. I know there are people around, I know there are things going on in the world... but there's only silence. There is no love, there is no hate. I feel like all my friends have abandoned me... Nobody can help me... And so I'm just sitting alone... Sitting in the silence... Just me and this dagger on the desk... And though I can't actually push myself to commit suicide... The want is there. Like a craving. And the craving slowly becomes a need... a necessity to remove pain... I want the pain gone...

I'm feeling... like the world's ugliest, absolute stupidest failure. Like if I were to die, world peace would ensue. I'm actually going to start crying. Which is amazing, seeing as how I'm an emotionless bastard. Why don't you all just keep on picking away at my soul until there's nothing left of it?! Oh, excuse me, too late.

And still no Shady... I'm starting to get a little depressed and angry at whatever is keeping him.

>> It's 5 and Shady hasn't been on all day. I guess this didn't turn out to be such a good day after all...

And usually snow means one thing... picture-perfect days for me, yay ^^. I was able to do a little bargaining with my parents to gain my freedom today, though they still want to have me grounded during vacations. That's just plain unfair. Oh well. I had intentions of getting up at 8, but the snooze button changed that to 8:30 XD. I guess flipping at my mom with the whole "I feel like a failure" speech worked after all... But I digress. I should put up a picture of my class ring sometime. o_o There's not much to say... though I did have lots to say... I'll update later I guess.

For tonight anyways XD. OK... I really need to get this out and in the open. One of my friends wants to have sex with his girlfriend. He hasn't even talked it over with her, and I honestly don't think he's found the right person yet. I told him to use a condom if he does in fact go for it, but I've tried to push him out of doing it. Gah where's professional advice when you need it?

I feel that the last post I made deserves a little explanation...
I blew everything out of total proportion, just like some immature little kid. Shady didn't actually break up with me, but I still feel stupid for exploding things into a proportion of beastly size. I must apologize for scaring everyone (and making Jai post sooo much today, I couldn't help my little posting storm). I feel like a total idiot for that scare. But believe me, it's not the first time. This would mark the 14th in my entire life that I've nearly lost my life.